ZikaZikaBoomBoom~: 4/11/2007

hehhehheh..
last night was totally fun!
i dint know life is jus like in the drama
u know...
parent n the child screaming at each other
ending with a few slaps from the mother...
mine is abit different though
i didnt run away like the child in dramas
coz i'm at the edge of my room, where else can i go? -.-

the face still numb
my first ever slap
i used to slap my friends in thai primary school
now i know the feeling

but i'm not angry
i'm jus disappointed
someone who i hope can be my shoulder, my support...
but she wat she said was
"i cared for u so much last time and u never change! n now u r 16, u are not a little baby anymore! u must know wat is right n wrong" blah blah....
i couldnt stop thinking to myself that i'm right

i dont know....but after thinking through alots of stuff, my instinct told me that i'm right. she never listen. she never know what ever i m thinking. she doesnt even care to ask y i do that for. the onli thing she does is to jus scold scold when i do anything that she 'thinks' wrong. well...last night was special, extra 2 slaps

it's time for war i guess
it's not fair for me to get slap jus becoz i said it out loud so that she can hear wat i'm thinking for all this while
and wat i get were 2 slaps and another scolding of me being so selfish
still rmb
SELFISH...SELFISH
i'm not selfish! my family sell prawns!
(like that still wan joke -.-)
seriously i ask, m i selfish?
m i so bad?

i m in her sight
due the 3 recent reasons
1. put power after bath nv wash floor, ppl can fall down, i nv think abt wat if ppl walk in a fall down n break thier bones
2. changing of clothes from home cloth to for-going-out cloth, and nv rewear again. we ate porridge n she allow noone to on fan so i sweat like siao, the cloth also soak, still want me wear that lump of rotten cloth?!
3. being so picky abt food (which i believe i do not, last time yes lah)

how much she care for me?
i dont know

i think it's time to fight for my own right!
she said will call my parents down
i'm not scare
but i'm worried...
i dont want to them to stress up over such matter
but i need and adult to stand by, when talking to the bitch
or else she'll never listen
she's right in everything....=.=
asshole

tsk

going camp tmr le, so looking forward to it ^^
it's gonna b fun~! lalala i'm gonna ... :P