ZikaZikaBoomBoom~: August 2008

^^ today was soooo great!
great until i came home and look through my account book
and i realised, i spent like $50+ dollars for this weekend alone
WTF -_-;;;
i'm sure gonna get slaughter by my parents
wahhhh ToT

anw, gt the kbox session with wilson, shao wei and weng lok
i didnt know....
wilson and weng lok could sing so well
but *ahem ahem* i sing better still
wuahahahaha :) jus kidding lah
actually we tried to book the room for three then asked wilson to sneaked in afterward, but the 'aunty' whom we tot is the manager of kbox, suddenly came in and insisted us to pay for 4 persons -.-
tsk! i wonder how she saw lah, the room was damn dark
nvm, doesnt matter
this trip wasnt as much fun as the last time i went with U-KNOW-WHO
but it was a gd way of relaxing coz we were like screaming like mad and were so loud that i could hear the screaming two rooms away
i bet other singers were damn irritated by us leh
lolx, hu care? we happy okie liao

we started with my thais songs DUH...
then wenglok choosed like 10 jay chou songs consecutively and i was almost fallen as sleep! -o- all slow songs somemore
then ltr on i know that thai songs were boring the ppl, so i jus spammed the chinese songs with them and wow, i was surprise that i could sing quite well! (i'm stating the fact and nt praising myself k XP)
other are nt bad too!!
THERE SHALL BE A NEXT TIME!!
i promise ^^

then we went to eat dinner and ended up slacking at starbuck
yah, one coffee each and u know how long we sat there??
3 hours...talking nonsense
it may nt seem long u somebody lah but to me it was like breaking record!!
sat there talking abt all nonsense in the world
all i dont want to know and want to know stories
and yah...some topics were realli disappointing
especially abt the national day performance

ppl said it was sux and disgusting and unexceptable and we have to go for councilling
umm...are we reali that sick minded??
in my opinion, i dont think so
we have reasons in doing so and let me make it clear, most of the steps and songs and positioning were designed by me and if u are nt happy with wat we did, blame on me and no one else!
we did it coz we want everyone to laugh, to smile
it's jus like why i dared to wear a skirt and perform on stage last year
it's to help evryone, it's to bring up the spirit
to me, those hu think that we are disgusting or wat so ever, u are jus too immature
look beyond wat we did
we could jus stopped the dance after the first song u know
but why we didnt??!!?
coz we believe tat it could realli bring great joy to evryone according to the first song responses!
and it was far worth than anything i could get in return
so please guys
BE UNDERSTANDING
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Saturday, August 23, 2008 10:08 PM
23/08/2008

umm...wat happening to the words here ah
write write then gt blue color and underline
-.- wat's going on?!?

anw, today was one of the greatest day of my life!!!
(for term 3)
lol
been feeling very sux nowsaday...WHY??
-i'm lonely
-my results are heart brokening
-my body ache T^T

etc.

went to watch 4bia today and omg
i picked a wrong movie man!
it's sooooooooooooooooo not my cup of tea ToT

first story of the movie already freaking me out
the second part totally gross and disgusting and...and...and...and (the list can jus go on and on)
i was trembling by then
the third one was totally disgusting, and look sooo REAL
i swear i will nv go camping alone again ><
then the forth one...
i was half relief half scared as it was the last part of the movie, but i still...dont dare to watch and my friend had to tell me not to watch not to watch and he jus explain to me wat was happening while i was kind of like hugging my legs on the seat
there were less than 10 ppl in the cinema lah
and i watched and screamed and screamed and kept turning my head away
XP scary mah i cant tahan to see and hor, i think i screamed more than the girls in front lah
*sobsob*
now my friend is online freaking me out but recaping the god damn movie
-o- wat a great friend

nth much after that lah, went to eat then went home with my friend and we both
umm...ended up on the bed
lolx
not gonna say wat we did, but it was damn fun!!
hope there'll b next time soon
hahaha ^^

and then there was cam hor period that my friend took for me today
we went to eat thaipan and yah
i was surprise with myself
i finish the butter squid when i hate squid alot

tat's all for today lor, a great memorable day that i'll nv forget
thanks for being with me!!!!
luvvvvvvvvvvvvv you lolx

haiz...tomorrow going singing

^^ finally! time to let lose some screw in my brain

gonna go mad mad like freak tmr!

watch out babies~!!!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008 10:58 PM
20/08/2008

hurray~!!!! 10 more days, my mommy and papi will be here
and i'll make sure my room get decorated, stuffed with dolls
lol, abit childish but i LUV forever friend bears
got one now but it very lonely lah
so jus like me...^^

but nvm, let talk abt today
a normal day, kind of gd day indeed if nt coz of ikwan...
coming into the class and said... "u know ah...i marked one person essay and he wrote a wonderful answer for question 1 but too bad, he nv link back the given factor, and therefore...he can get onli 3 out of 12" (something abt there lah) and he was staring at me all along...then i was enlightened. i thought that wat i wrote there was enough despite the fact that i doubt abt it during exam but i heck care and nv bother to edit.
it's 100% me, hu else lah
made me feel like crying lah
i fail my ss again...i should go for intensive ss training soon
i did expect myself to pass coz i analyse the question carefully and i realli studied very hard for SS, but all i get was jus another fail mark that will pull my L1R5 up till very disgusting. the same goes for english, which i gt 44.4, wat a nice number BUT it was like a totally **** up period for me lah. T^T

my parents called me this evening
say they very proud of me for being such a gd boy after staying alone and they believe that my result is gd as expected as always
seriously...i was speechless
wat to say?? i cant i cant and i WONT disappoint them again
not after the last year incident
i want them to believe in me...
may b i shall jus do wat Ms neo had mentioned
"why dont you go back thailand and study?"
but that is like a shame to my family, i am seen as the one of the brightest kids among my generation (according to wat ppl told me)
and should i b packing my bag home sadly jus because i cant pass my english? wtf.
feel like crying and yah i did, when i was on my way home
the way ppl consoled me was jus making me think more of my parents and it was jus beyond control. (thanks anyway for caring and it's all my fault lah k)
i cantblame anyone but myself. i'm such a failure. do i even deserve to live?
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i nv tell anyone in my family abt this...no point...
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anw, enough of sad things ^^
i went parkway with Niche to get her new shoes -_-
(when i felt like sleeping at home -*-)
but we sian sian went do the coloring outside isetan there at the 2nd storey
lol
very cute (me and Niche)
colored the dog and the cat in luv

my skill~
i did the cat one. tried put brown color for the legs and the mouth
in the end...look like alien...redo the parts zzzz

almost done and my cousin was coloring the background by herself lah ^^
coz i lazy DUH
jus sat there tell her here this color there that color
lolx
and it ended out like this :

so cute!!!!
it's jus like you and me!!!! lolx
next time we go do together k?
honey~
i dont mind wat ppl see lor
as long as we luv each other...that all i ever ask for
remember wat i said??
dont hav to think of me evry second of ur life;
jus think of me at evry breath you take, and i'm all your
(okay lah, today i was abit naughty Xp watch ppl show their butts in the changing room, lolx. yummy!!!{jus kidding })
lolx
abiiiiiiiit stupid lor, hahaha
it been long time since my blog gt such muchy post
shall hav more yet to come bah (i hope)

below here are 2 pic i took quite sometime ago in class
incase anybody wants it
Rahmat and Rishi...
enjoy doing something together^^
woo~!

BTW, anybody gt take pic of my performance?? i want save to my com lah, tell me the link or send me??

Thursday, August 14, 2008 11:05 PM
14/08/2008

ppl been saying my blog very emo -_-
wel i wont deny that
but i dont dont know where to venge on coz i think i left my dear diary back in thailand!
also nt many ppl reading my blog anw, it's jus for myself to enjoy the past
^^

anw exam are bombarding from evrywhere
and i'm somehow.....
stunned
screwed the chem paper today and tmr is the last chance for physics
hope i do well (A1)

let talk abt life and nt school bah, i can get sick of it sometime

now...my life...how has it been? SUX
not almost though
i happened to know someone hu realli care (i think they do)
and i guess it's time for another adventure!!
my life has been very down lately
but i hav nice friends ^^
and tat realli brighten up my evryday!

as for the past
let jus rest it and bury it behind
let this be the last time i ever write abt you
ppl say it lame tat i make a memo of u, but it will be jus a reminder that I, had once love the person like you
BJ (not blowjob!!)
as for the new ones
hope we can be closer day by day!!!!
wee~!

Tuesday, August 12, 2008 7:13 PM
12/08/2008

i'm tired
tired of studying
but wat if i dont study?? all that pop up are jus you, you, you, you and another you
*sob sob*
if life here is so hurtful wat is the point of staying here
it rox to stay alone now, but if staying alone means EVRYTHING else is gonna b as lonely, no thanks.
is it so hard to please someone? i tried, perhaps too much.
but the result i've been getting back is like dust particle, small and tiny that almost invisible.
wat if i'll jus break down now, would someone even care?
would someone even bother if i'm happy or sad?
in fact, ppl dont even know when do i feel sad.

it's jus a come and go isnt it?
that's all abt life
cant it be, for once, everlasting??
i'm sick of it, sick of evrything!!!!
wat if i can enjoy the way my heart desire??
"no!" tat's wat i've been telling myself
if it is so tired and no one even care
may b i'll jus do it
let it go
let it be the way i want
let me enjoy my life, for once
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should i giv myself more chances??
i dont know
it's an uncountable time

wat to do? o.O