Wednesday, August 20, 2008 10:58 PM
20/08/2008
♥ DEAR DIARIES ¥™â
hurray~!!!! 10 more days, my mommy and papi will be here
and i'll make sure my room get decorated, stuffed with dolls
lol, abit childish but i LUV forever friend bears
got one now but it very lonely lah
so jus like me...^^
but nvm, let talk abt today
a normal day, kind of gd day indeed if nt coz of ikwan...
coming into the class and said... "u know ah...i marked one person essay and he wrote a wonderful answer for question 1 but too bad, he nv link back the given factor, and therefore...he can get onli 3 out of 12" (something abt there lah) and he was staring at me all along...then i was enlightened. i thought that wat i wrote there was enough despite the fact that i doubt abt it during exam but i heck care and nv bother to edit.
it's 100% me, hu else lah
made me feel like crying lah
i fail my ss again...i should go for intensive ss training soon
i did expect myself to pass coz i analyse the question carefully and i realli studied very hard for SS, but all i get was jus another fail mark that will pull my L1R5 up till very disgusting. the same goes for english, which i gt 44.4, wat a nice number BUT it was like a totally **** up period for me lah. T^T
my parents called me this evening
say they very proud of me for being such a gd boy after staying alone and they believe that my result is gd as expected as always
seriously...i was speechless
wat to say?? i cant i cant and i WONT disappoint them again
not after the last year incident
i want them to believe in me...
may b i shall jus do wat Ms neo had mentioned
"why dont you go back thailand and study?"
but that is like a shame to my family, i am seen as the one of the brightest kids among my generation (according to wat ppl told me)
and should i b packing my bag home sadly jus because i cant pass my english? wtf.
feel like crying and yah i did, when i was on my way home
the way ppl consoled me was jus making me think more of my parents and it was jus beyond control. (thanks anyway for caring and it's all my fault lah k)
i cantblame anyone but myself. i'm such a failure. do i even deserve to live?
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.
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i nv tell anyone in my family abt this...no point...
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.
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anw, enough of sad things ^^
i went parkway with Niche to get her new shoes -_-
(when i felt like sleeping at home -*-)
but we sian sian went do the coloring outside isetan there at the 2nd storey
lol
very cute (me and Niche)
colored the dog and the cat in luv
my skill~
i did the cat one. tried put brown color for the legs and the mouth
in the end...look like alien...redo the parts zzzz
almost done and my cousin was coloring the background by herself lah ^^
coz i lazy DUH
jus sat there tell her here this color there that color
lolx
and it ended out like this :
so cute!!!!
it's jus like you and me!!!! lolx
next time we go do together k?
honey~
i dont mind wat ppl see lor
as long as we luv each other...that all i ever ask for
remember wat i said??
dont hav to think of me evry second of ur life;
jus think of me at evry breath you take, and i'm all your
(okay lah, today i was abit naughty Xp watch ppl show their butts in the changing room, lolx. yummy!!!{jus kidding })
lolx
abiiiiiiiit stupid lor, hahaha
it been long time since my blog gt such muchy post
shall hav more yet to come bah (i hope)
below here are 2 pic i took quite sometime ago in class
incase anybody wants it
Rahmat and Rishi...
enjoy doing something together^^
woo~!
BTW, anybody gt take pic of my performance?? i want save to my com lah, tell me the link or send me??
and i'll make sure my room get decorated, stuffed with dolls
lol, abit childish but i LUV forever friend bears
got one now but it very lonely lah
so jus like me...^^
but nvm, let talk abt today
a normal day, kind of gd day indeed if nt coz of ikwan...
coming into the class and said... "u know ah...i marked one person essay and he wrote a wonderful answer for question 1 but too bad, he nv link back the given factor, and therefore...he can get onli 3 out of 12" (something abt there lah) and he was staring at me all along...then i was enlightened. i thought that wat i wrote there was enough despite the fact that i doubt abt it during exam but i heck care and nv bother to edit.
it's 100% me, hu else lah
made me feel like crying lah
i fail my ss again...i should go for intensive ss training soon
i did expect myself to pass coz i analyse the question carefully and i realli studied very hard for SS, but all i get was jus another fail mark that will pull my L1R5 up till very disgusting. the same goes for english, which i gt 44.4, wat a nice number BUT it was like a totally **** up period for me lah. T^T
my parents called me this evening
say they very proud of me for being such a gd boy after staying alone and they believe that my result is gd as expected as always
seriously...i was speechless
wat to say?? i cant i cant and i WONT disappoint them again
not after the last year incident
i want them to believe in me...
may b i shall jus do wat Ms neo had mentioned
"why dont you go back thailand and study?"
but that is like a shame to my family, i am seen as the one of the brightest kids among my generation (according to wat ppl told me)
and should i b packing my bag home sadly jus because i cant pass my english? wtf.
feel like crying and yah i did, when i was on my way home
the way ppl consoled me was jus making me think more of my parents and it was jus beyond control. (thanks anyway for caring and it's all my fault lah k)
i cantblame anyone but myself. i'm such a failure. do i even deserve to live?
.
.
.
.
i nv tell anyone in my family abt this...no point...
.
.
.
.
anw, enough of sad things ^^
i went parkway with Niche to get her new shoes -_-
(when i felt like sleeping at home -*-)
but we sian sian went do the coloring outside isetan there at the 2nd storey
lol
very cute (me and Niche)
colored the dog and the cat in luv
my skill~i did the cat one. tried put brown color for the legs and the mouth
in the end...look like alien...redo the parts zzzz
almost done and my cousin was coloring the background by herself lah ^^coz i lazy DUH
jus sat there tell her here this color there that color
lolx
and it ended out like this :
so cute!!!! it's jus like you and me!!!! lolx
next time we go do together k?
honey~
i dont mind wat ppl see lor
as long as we luv each other...that all i ever ask for
remember wat i said??
dont hav to think of me evry second of ur life;
jus think of me at evry breath you take, and i'm all your
(okay lah, today i was abit naughty Xp watch ppl show their butts in the changing room, lolx. yummy!!!{jus kidding })
lolx
abiiiiiiiit stupid lor, hahaha
it been long time since my blog gt such muchy post
shall hav more yet to come bah (i hope)
below here are 2 pic i took quite sometime ago in class
incase anybody wants it
Rahmat and Rishi...
enjoy doing something together^^
woo~!
BTW, anybody gt take pic of my performance?? i want save to my com lah, tell me the link or send me??there's never an end ♡
