ZikaZikaBoomBoom~: 07/02/2009

so close yet so far...
have you ever heard of that phrase?
today i realli felt it
i know i shouldnt be saying this but, i jus cant keep it...it's too much for me to handle.
it all began since last year, there was this period that i realise, 'u' made my heart droofing and today, my heart was sooo excited throughout the whole day! i was going crazy. u sms me in the morning how to go to that Mac in tp, then we met and went to tp tgt. that was kind of my FIRST chance of traveling ard with you. you were so slpy, i felt like smacking ur head and pinched your cheeks. when i thought of it, i blushed, and obviously, u werent suppose to be noticing anything ///-/// it was jus...my own little dreamy world of wishes tat will nv come true.

i quickly told angus who i wanted to partner with and 'u' are my partner as expected. we were like the first enthu kia who went for the donation. i dont know why, but timed seemed to fly so fast. there was nv once that i had this kind of moment to spend with u two persons, to know more of you and most importantly, to find out the truth. u were different. totaly diff from the school. it was nice partnering with you and and ....and....i dunno? i was in love? gosh...
it was more obvious, when we went to cinema, sitting beside u was so uncomfortable. i had to always control and maintain my pose so to make sure that we still remain at a distance. it was extremely hard. i was realli hoping that...something like a lover could hav done. tsk. stupid isnt it? i dint want to stay away frm you. u are like a magnet that i kept attracting to. when we walked, side by side. when we ate, side by side. and you know what? what u did to me in the lift was really making me dumbfounded...how was i suppose to react?! when u jus... on me and i was seriously blushing like tomato lah. nobody ever suspected my feeling for you, it was all seemed to b like a joke, but i do hope it happens. anw, why did i even bother followed you home in the first place? i could hav jus stayed on at tp there and enjoy my day. i jus wanted to accompany u as long as possible. it's wrong, i know. i wont even stand a chance.

nvm, jus take it as a stupid lamenting of mine k. i shouldnt be saying this. it's gonna make matter worse. i should jus shut up. and one more thing...i already hav someone. i cant effort to like another one hu seem to be like a dream to me. it's nv gonna come true. i know it, i jus know it. i dont want that kian cong incident to repeat itself u know. tat was damn idiotic of me.

zzzzz. shut up!

now i alreadt hav someone in mind and THAT person will nt change! i will maintain it. i do feel it that it is going to turn out great! i'm sorry for me yabbling rubbish today k...
may b it's true after all...
'close distance win true love'?