ZikaZikaBoomBoom~: 2/2/2008

hahaha...it wont b a damn good day if not coz of the convo i heard

i was stepping into the train back to Bedok, i stood facing the window with my hands grabbing the near by pole. (i'm not doing pole dance k!)
then a pair of girls was talking with each other, then i (accidentally) noticed the one nearer to me signaling her head to my direction, before saying : "he so handsome leh!" and the other replied, "so what? sure got girlfriend liao lah"
i was like... o.O?
but cant hear anymore!!! they were speaking even softer
so i looked back towards the direction by the girl, 'who was the handsome dude in here ah??' look look look...no leh...onli gt those 30+ uncle in this cabin of the train...so were they talking abt....ME?? OoO ohhh myyy godddddddddd (drag the sound as long as possible) xp
were they realli talking abt me?? wee~ yay~! at least i still gt some male hormones to b shown off! ohyeah ohyeah~! so i was *ahem* act 'cool' and get rid all the bitchy attitude and stood still
wuahahaha, felt so weird doing it though...occasionally had to pose like stone..emotionless
which is soooooooo NOT ME!

went out with Arius today ^^
if u ask me...was it fun? i'll immediately say NO
i felt as if a was a yabbling machine or something? i was the onli one talking non stop
and he listen!!!
he knows how to listen!!! i'm surprise!
or may b he's totally not interested ~.~
the episode is to b continue.....

we jus walked around the Suntec area here here there there
ended up in Burger king...
and again...i was the onli one eating..he going out with his 'frenz' ltr so dont wanna eat
wel..this realli show how much he cares
anw, my type is that
u dont care me i dont care u ; wat u do to me, is wat i do to u
as simple to understand as that

may b i'm jus so freaking disgusting or ugly
evryone hates me
dont think i dont know abt all those eyes looking at me in school as if i'm some virus
i jus feel like moving back in time
where was my unforgetable life last year?
the feeling of all my dears friends surrounding
and we went crazy together countless times
but now is jus totally nothing
i'm jus a piece of disgusting rubbish that nobody cares or dare to touch

when did i become such a failure...can somebody jus tell me
i want...my life back